This is my personal blog, and when I started it, it was mostly to write about very personal things. I wrote about making the agonizing decision to leave my PhD program with my Master’s degree, about the ways I try to manage my depression-and-anxiety-prone brain, and about leaving an abusive relationship during my first year of graduate school. I also wrote about less-heavy personal things, like what podcasts I listened to, and about not-particularly-personal things, like why the promotion of “Positive Thinking” is harmful.
The stories I told didn’t always paint the most flattering picture of me and my life, but they were true and honest and held value for some of my fellow humans, and that made it worth it for me. After awhile though, my circumstances changed a bit and the super raw, highly personal style didn’t feel right anymore. I didn’t know how to deal with that well, so I posted less and less until eventually, I disappeared entirely for awhile.
As it turns out though, I couldn’t really stay away. For awhile, I focused a bit more on giving my perspective on interesting things I found on the internet, and less on self-reflection, which was somewhat of a departure from my old style. These days I do a bit of link-dumping/short commentary, a bit of personal writing, and a mix of other things. I’ll be honest with you–I’m still figuring things out as I go. But it’s been a marvelous adventure, and I hope to figure out a way to keep it going for as long as possible, even if that means continuing to shake things up now and then.
Oh, one more thing! Just so you know, I am a huge fan of CaptainAwkward [if you aren’t familiar with her, Captain Awkward is a brilliant blogger who writes amazing advice and moderates literally the most lovely comments section on the internet], and occasionally terminology that originated on her blog finds its way into my posts. The one I use most commonly is jerkbrain, which is described at the lovely Captain Awkward Glossary:
Jerkbrain: When your brain acts against your best interests, possibly due to chemical reasons or social conditioning that is hard to break.
I will be making more of an effort in the future to link to a reference if I use any of these sorts of internet-inside-joke terms, but since I’m not going back through the archives to do so for old posts, I thought I’d put a note here as well, in case anyone was curious.